“A Few figs from thistles…”
by Howard A. Tabor
We’re born into a Ptolemaic world. Galileo, Copernicus, Brahe, and Keppler notwithstanding.
For the first years of life, each of us is the self-centered focus of a personal universe. I am Ptolemy; hear me roar! Meanwhile out arsenal of pronouns grows: åit shifts from me (the object of all attention; of gifts bestowed by parents, siblings, caregivers) to my (as possessor of all that comes within the tender but tenacious grip of developing motor skills) as it slowly grows into the difficult adult maturity of I. Gradually we become just one of many agents active in the ever-growing Copernican world including others. The infantile barrage of “Bridezillas”, “Jerseylicious”, and worse — our me-oriented, so-called reality TV — speaks against my premise. But they also reinforce it.
Someone recently passed a manuscript to me — a work-in-progress that I’ve been asked to review — which also depends upon personal pronouns. But it is their absence, not their presence that sets the work apart from the few autobiographies of my experience. My friend has begun an autobiography, an account of his life, but has chosen to exclude those most personal of words: I, me, my, mine. Reading the author’s unusual intention in the foreword, I wonder how such a thing is possible. Could I share the story of my life without mentioning me?
Lives can be reflected, indirect, obtuse, self-evident; mirrored in others, seen through the lens of family, neighbors, colleagues, mentors, co-workers, enemies and friends, heroes and passers-by. Lives are seasoned with experience, from rhythm and routine, wrong turns and accidents that become right turns and serendipitous joy. They are told with accoutrements, things, and just plain stuff; with failure, loss and waste; with admiration and disdain. Aspiration, desire, belief, regret, despair; grace (both with and without a capital G). What we know or don’t or thought we did; what we hope, hate, and haven’t got a clue — all can be acknowledged, admitted, and allowed. Must be, in fact, if truth be told. Auden says that every autobiography “is concerned with two characters, a Don Quixote, the Ego, and a Sancho Panza, the Self.” Can a life be told one further step removed?
It’s not about me.
That’s the working title of the manuscript on my desk. I know the author, not well, but well enough to make distance, a measure of objectivity between text and reader. What ought we to expect?
I’m anxious to explore.
PS: I wrote this well before the last election.